Things are different now.
by bondservant
(583 views) - 3/26/05
(recorded 3/26/05 @ 7:11:57 AM)
Things are different now. It makes me a little sad, even though I know it will be a good thing in the end. I have to admit, though, that it is uncomfortable. I had you to hold on to for so long. I know, I know. you aren't gone. You are still there waiting, but it is different now. Two and a half years is a long time, but almost half of that we spent apart. It is sad now to know that I won't have anything to celebrate when the number 22 shows up on the calendar. Things feel unstable now--I know they have been for a while, but it is different now. There is something about that title....

But it will be good in the end. It just feels odd right now. We'll probably have some awkward moments as we try to figure this out. But we'll get used to it eventually. And it will be good. I just have to keep telling myself that. It doesn't feel like a good thing right now, but I have to believe that it will be. I can't imagine how you feel....

For so long (it seems like I can't remember anything else) there have been the two of us. But things are different now. But that will be good.



I hope.
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it'll be fine... everything works out for the best in a candide sorta way.

-Reptiles need not apply
   [Lux (J) 3/26/05 8:39 PM]




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