by Wildfire
(551 views) - 9/12/05
(recorded 9/12/05 @ 2:06:18 PM)

You're so much more than you'll show anyone and I feel like I'm the only one who even suspects that you've got more than you're sharing with the world. Significantly more.

You surprise and amaze me every day. We're so alike and yet, very different.

I'm not sure if I even know the full extent of who and what has hurt you, Kate. I'd like to, if you would let me. I don't know if you see what you're doing but it's the same thing that _______ is doing. You can trust me, I know it's hard to let go but I swear I'll never take more from you than you want to give. I'll never let you fall and I will always try and catch you when other people let you down. Consider this a plea or an oath, a vow, a promise, anything. Just let me be your friend. Let me care about you, let me love you.

I want to help you but you're so goddamned good at putting up walls to protect yourself, you also keep out the people with the best intentions.

You aren't the ice-hearted loner you would prefer me to think you are. I can see it in your eyes when they mist over and become heavy with tears. You love her, Kate and that's all there is to it. No need to be afraid. _______ loves you too.

You're both so afraid to hurt each other and yourselves that you don't see how much what you're doing already is hurting you both. What's the worst thing that could happen? You could allow yourselves to completely fall in love with each other and then finally realize that you are not supposed to be together and break up. It hurts because you still love her but you both know it's right. Pain is a part of life, if you didn't feel pain you wouldn't appreciate beauty. You'll pick up the pieces and move on because that's what you do. It isn't the end of the world, I promise.

I love you, Kate. Just let me love you. Let me help you. Let me be your friend. Through thick and thin, I swear I can do it.


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