I Need Sleep. The Difference Between Need and Want
by Lux
(639 views) - 10/8/03
(recorded 10/8/03 @ 4:01:01 PM)
After today I realize that I need more sleep. I don't exactly know how I'll manage to pull that off. Hell, I spend less than one hour on hmwk a night, but still manage to go to bed after midnight consistently. Thank god the break is only one and a half school days awake. Then... then I can stay out all night and still not get sleep. Bah...

So I guess it's not exactly because it's impossible for me to get enough sleep, it's more like I don't want to. I enjoy the late night talks, the late night movies, and the late night outtings. But a body can only go so long without some sort of refueling. Like today, I nearly fell asleep in Art class. I think the only thing that kept me awake was my friend showing me her finished work of none other than me. Apparently I have the hair of that Static Shock cartoon and somehow the waiter got a sex change... Go figure... Kidding.. Kidding... It's a good painting, not exactly on the level of Boticelli, but it's damn good nonetheless. Two tests and one essay exam later, I get home and scarf down a big tupperware container full of leftovers and hop online. Ten minutes and a dead end conversation later, it's lights out. I realized I was heading down the path of blacking out, but I just sort of let it happen. I'd jerk awake once or twice, but finally I took a good 40 min nap. Woke up, looked at the clock, cussed, then wearily started to dress out all the while my mouth felt like it had wrotten cotton balls in it. Pleh. I wasn't fully awake until 500 meters of free style later.

Now I sit here pondering what to do tonight. I don't have much homework as the week's winding down. Maybe I'll actually go to bed or maybe I'll deny myself sleep once more. Either way, it's my choice and the consequences I face alone.

Oh, that reminds me, I nearly got another clickety-thingie from Lindsey today. But she said she had to have it and seemed serious enough. 'Sides, I'm not a mean guy. Apparently, I forgot to give back a pen to a friend and managed to lose it. I'm not sure which pen she's talking about. She said it was blue so I'm gonna bring to school a blue pen I happen to have found at home a few days back. If not, I think I'll scrounge around and buy her a pack of blue pens.

Watching this Matchbox 20 music video that came on my Jukebox player. The lead singer is kinda odd looking. Then again, the AFI singer is much much odder looking. Music videos make me content. I could sit here all day chatting, looking up stuff, and watching music videos perfectly satisfied. It would be the ultimate life of apathy and right now it doesn't sound so bad. I should be more agressive in life and reach out for what I want to achieve, but right now I'll keep the reaching to reaching for a Dr. Pepper. Anything more and I might strain something crucial.

I end this journal listening to 3 Doors Down - "Here Without You". Pray I get some sleep tonight. "But tonight, it's only you and me..."
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I too could go for more sleep. Know what steals it? OIO ;) Think about it... no seriously, think about it.

~Cut and print~
   [noprotein (J:: M) 10/8/03 11:52 PM]

It's true... You *do* rank second on hits registered... ;-)

   [disillusioned (J:: M) 10/9/03 2:50 AM]

Congrats also, on winning the National Merit Award thingie. It will... you know... take you places, I'm sure.

   [disillusioned (J:: M) 10/9/03 2:50 AM]

Chen, I feel your pain. Sleep would be great. I'm just envious of you and your fall break. Oh, to get to sleep....

At your service :: bondservant
   [bondservant (J) 10/9/03 7:42 AM]

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